A Poem I Wrote.

Chronic illness – friend or foe?

If I didn’t tell you, would you ever know?

My symptoms are hidden and it can be hard to see,

How difficult it really is to be me.

 

Every morning I wake up, anticipating how I’ll feel,

Sometimes having to pinch myself that this is all real.

I can’t breathe, I’m tired, I’m constantly in pain,

Trying my best not to let this drive me insane.

 

I do hours of treatments day and night,

In order to help my body put up a fight.

I take handfuls of medications and pills,

Having to keep an eye out for when I need to refill,

If I leave it too late or don’t have enough,

It would be difficult to breathe, make life really tough.

 

I very rarely get a good length of sleep at night, 

It can be uncomfortable to lay down, not easy to feel alright.

I cough for a large proportion of the day,

And it’s completely exhausting to be living this way.

I do get embarrassed about what other people may think,

Sometimes I want to curl up into a ball, I just want to shrink.

 

My illness has taken a lot away from me,

Some of my independence, my dreams and part of my identity.

I can’t study at university and follow my plans,

To flourish into the person who inside I really am.

 

But it has taught me patience and it’s taught me how to truly love,

So so many issues, I’ve learnt to rise above.

Many challenges have been thrown my way,

And its been the most difficult times of my life, I would definitely say.

 

It’s not easy- some days it really is hard,

All the negative thoughts I try my best to discard.

I don’t know what the future has in store,

But I know there’s more to life than this, so much more.

 

In spite of everything, I try my best all of the time,

But believe me when I say I would do anything to be back at my prime.

I hope that one day I’ll be in a much healthier place,

And be living every day of life with a smile on my face.

 

Chronic illness – friend or foe?

If I didn’t tell you, would you ever know?

My symptoms are hidden and can be hard to see,

How difficult it really is to be me.

Ky x 

 

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